weigh in

We got back from camping on Sunday and I had my weigh in on Monday. I was nervous to step on the scale because let's face it, I don't eat my best while camping. But this time I was a little more mindful of what I consumed and it paid off, at least a little. I lost .2 pounds this past week. Nothing spectacular but it's still a loss and I'm proud of that. Eating sausage gravy and biscuits, a burger, chips, smores, and countless other tiny bad choices made me think I was going to gain weight. But I think the awesome hike we did on Saturday helped burn off a few of those pesky calories.

in love

David bought me the best Christmas present ever (according to me) in 2006. At first I was faithful to it, giving it the attention it deserved. But after a while it became a dust collector as these things tend to do.

I'm talking about this:




Now to defend myself a little....David insisted on putting it together ourselves (did I just throw my husband under the bus?). You can guess how that turned out. After a few weeks the thing was making horrible clicking noises and it became stressful to use it. And exercise is supposed to release stress. So in the corner it went....for a while.

We finally got a repair man in and it was as good as new. Then the batteries died on it and I just started to use it without all the bells and whistles. I became bored with it and back in the corner it went.

Until a few days ago. I finally took on the HUGE challenge of replacing the batteries. Whew, that was exhausting! Seriously, I cannot believe how lazy I was in not replacing those sooner. I forgot how much fun that thing can be. Yes, fun!

I forgot all the awesome things that come along with the elliptical. Pre-programmed workouts, there's a countdown clock, resistance, you can figure out your pulse, the fan, and most importantly you can see how many calories you are burning.

And now that our TV is working again in the basement, thanks to my awesome husband (see I made up for blaming him earlier!), I can distract myself from the burn. Today I played Friends and that helped me get through the 30 min workout beautifully.

I've fallen in love with that machine and I'm actually craving workouts now. I can't remember the last time that's happened. Here's to hoping it's a trend that lasts!

weigh in

I'm happy to report that I lost 3 pounds this past week. I'm thrilled because David has been away and I've been ridiculously stressed at work and usually a combination like that would make me want to eat more. But I've been able to stay on track and I even got more exercise in over the weekend.

And it paid off!

inspiration

I have the picture below posted on my mirror in my bedroom. It's a reminder of what I once looked like and it's my motivation to finally lose this weight. It's a self portrait I took in college.



Is it unreasonable to think I can get back to this weight? And those arms, jeez, I want those arms back!

I was thin for the first 21 years of my life. Under all of this weight is a thin, athletic person screaming to get out. I want to be the way I was. It's all I ever knew. Even though I've been overweight for the past 10 years it's not me, it's not who I am. I will never be happy being this weight.

Growing up, aside from normal activities I was either playing softball, tennis, throwing the javelin or discus. I can't even explain how it feels to still be that same athletic person inside but not on the outside. I realize it's my own fault for letting it happen and not changing it sooner but it's so much harder to lose the weight than it is to gain it.

It kind of all fell apart after I graduated college. I met David and we spent all of our time together. I didn't have a job out of college and I think that's when I started to run to food for comfort. I lived with 2 guys. There wasn't much cooking going on in that house! And I didn't get that bug to want to cook yet so we ate fast food...a lot of fast food. That was kind of the beginning of my downfall. Kind of the beginning for David as well.

We gained this weight together and now we are going to lose it together. I just get mad at myself from time to time for letting this happen. The girl in the mirror is not the one I see when I close my eyes. The girl above is.

weigh in

It's been a while since I posted last and it's because I've been so ridiculously busy. Work was insane this past week but it's still the weekend and I refuse to talk about work...so moving on :)

Last week's weigh in was a bust and a bit of a fluke, and I had to wait until Wednesday to do it anyway so I skipped posting about it. But I weighed myself this morning and it turns out that I lost what I gained so that's good I guess. Back on track this week to really keep on points and exercise.

I'm still happy I was able to lose what I gained because yesterday was dotted with foods I probably shouldn't have eaten the day before a weigh in. But it was date night last night and it was totally worth it. It was the perfect summer date...dinner, mini golf and ice cream. So even if I had gained a little I still would have been happy because yesterday was so much fun!